Day 38 - Home

I didn't sleep well. I kept waking in the night with tummy pains. I know how an anxiety tummy ache feels and it wasn't like that. I suppose it could be something I've eaten but I haven't had anything too spicy or out of the ordinary. 🤷‍♀️

I did the usual routine of getting breakfast for everyone and having a bucket of tea. The weather is about to change so I went in the garden, using my book as a pillow, to enjoy the last of it for a while.

I had a think about what I wanted to do with the day ahead and contemplated going out for a run. I was hoping it might help with the tummy ache so I got changed and went out. I think I went out a bit too fast but was determined to keep up the pace and ended up totally smashing it!  It was a hot run but I felt chuffed with it. Just need to try and go slower but do further.

Today on the turn towards home I suddenly realised that I didn't want to go back. Usually it spurs me on when I know I'm heading towards home but I just wasn't ready yet.  Would now be the time I do a Britney Spears, shave my head and run away? 😂. I'm a stay at home Mum and I am used to being in a lot and I like it.  Since moving to this new house just over a year ago I've spent way more time at home and friends tend to come to me more now than meeting out as I'm proud of where I live and it's cheaper. 😜  It also means I am in a lot more.  I am not complaining, honestly.  I have a great set up.  Nice home, close to the cycle path, amenities and park near by, walking distance to school, quiet cul-de-sac and nice neighbours, but I just feel trapped, like everyone else and I sometimes have that urge to escape 😄

After smashing my run I walked home with a very quick stop to say hi to Karen.  Overly social distanced and just said a quick hello, how are you? What you doing? Want to hug you, see you soon, walk away sad kind of thing.  It's so bittersweet and the leaving part is the hardest. 😔

When I got home Ellis was doing his Zoom quiz with his rugby mates. He loved it!  Thanks so much Tim and Nathan for organising it all.  Hopefully if it isn't too much trouble you could do it every week 😉

Had tummy pains all day and still no idea why.  Maybe just from getting absolutely smashed the other night has unsettled it.  Who would have thought it? 🤷

I felt more in the mood for Snapchat today so messed around with those.  Also yesterday I forgot to post the pictures I took with Oscar.  I'm getting them all in on it 😁

Leo's knee injury seems to be repaired now which is great as he's been able to get outside and play a bit more.  He also managed to do a workout today with the older boys which he seemed to enjoy.

Balancing

Rob spent most of his day sorting out a little project with Leo.  He set up some CCTV cameras and put some signs up outside the house.  Hope it works. 🤞

I went out for a drive today too.  I know it's a bit naughty going out twice but we needed milk and bread before I pick up the click and collect tomorrow and I wanted to drop Oscar's clothes donation to my friend's house.  So I dragged Oscar with me as he hasn't been out for ages and it would keep him away from those pesky screens.  The road trip was uneventful but was nice to have a chat with just Oscar.  He is super excited about going to Ohio when lockdown is done as he has seen an indoor mountain bike park he wants to go to.  I'll be more than happy to take him!  We went to a Sainsbury's local on the way back.  He stayed in the car and I queued up.  Not had to do that before so it was a bit strange and I didn't like how small the place was inside.  I think they should of set up a one way system as the aisles were too narrow for 2 people, plus someone stacking shelves, luckily I grabbed my two items and got out.  Paid first for course 😊

I have no idea what I did with the rest of my day.  It just sort of went.  Oh I know, I did some cleaning and sorting.

Trying to make the most of being able to sit in the garden I had my dinner out there.  It would have been nice to hear the birds chirping away but no, I had 2 screaming kids on the trampoline and one sitting next to me complaining about the vegetables he had to eat.  Well I enjoyed mine 😋

I showered and got ready for my weekly chat with the Mummy Lot.  I decided I wasn't going to be putting my pyjamas on so I actually put some normal clothes on! I've been living in active wear or pyjamas and I really enjoyed having something different on.  I might try and go through my wardrobe and see what I have.

The boys were not too bad at going to bed but none of them want to do school work tomorrow.  Ellis is dreading it as he has online lessons to attend, a head teacher assembly every week, has to check in with his tutor every day and with his head of house once a week.  He's going to be busy, which is good as he's spent 3 weeks doing naff all!

Leo isn't able to get to sleep well at the moment.  Last night he slept in with Ellis but tonight I let him in with me.  He is such a sweaty boy!  He turned over to face me and I noticed he'd put a handprint on himself. ✋😁

Well, it's Monday. 1am nearly. School day, but also my Saskia's birthday!  I really hope she has a lovely day and she gets spoilt rotten by her family.  I'm planning a tactical jog past her living room window tomorrow to give her a wave. 👋💟. Can't wait until we can celebrate properly xxx

Today I learnt that as much as I like being home, I sometimes feel like a caged animal.  I'm looking forward to celebrations and I am grateful I didn't kill any snails today.  I really hope the weather man has the forecast wrong. 🙏

Best get a few hours sleep, hopefully a bit more than last night. 😴